In the middle of drowning, she said to herself: “well, if I’m underwater I might as well swim!”

Paradoxes and mutabilities
Lost loves and forgotten memories
Streams flowin’ backwards without a melody
I feel like Mercury
Retrofaded, on my knees
Saying, ooo please
Think of me, I’ll sneeze
I couldn’t see the forest, only datin’ white trees
Smoke em once, get so high ya can’t see
But now I’m coming down, tryna focus on me-oh
Thought I knew you, maybe I outgrew you
Said you’d show me everything, but is this the true you
I cry harder tryna hold it all in
But I hide it with a smile, don’t display chaos within

Laughter as survival, I treat that shit like bible, the tears only seem pretty when they’re coming from my idols,
The spiral’s my rival, emotions run tidal,
Married to these feelings but this shower ain’t bridal

Laugh ‘til you die, hold yourself and,
Laugh when you should cry,
Giggle while you’re high and fly,
never let yourself ask why

Laugh ’til you die, hold yourself and,
Laugh when you should cry,
Breathe a sigh and take in the sky,
see your life in the clouds passing by

Retrofaded, baby yeah I’m jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated

Yeah we’ve been sad, can’t be that way forever
Drivin’ me mad, this emotional tether
We’ve been soft, we’ve been lighter than a feather
Now I ask myself if thissa tie I gotta sever, oh
Never, let’s just treat each other better
Whether clouds outside change our inner weather
I wrote you a letter, treated you like a debtor
Call me stupid in love, coz I’m still wearing your sweater
We look like we’re both doing fine
Coz our coping mechanisms don’t align
Outta sight, outta mind, don’t press rewind
We tried this shit before, then you said you were mine
Was I feelings to feel and a place to stay?
Questions I still ask like how’d it end up this way

Laughter as survival, I treat that shit like bible, the tears only seem pretty when they’re coming from my idols,
The spiral’s my rival, emotions run tidal,
Married to these feelings but this shower ain't bridal

Laugh ‘til you die, hold yourself and,
Laugh when you should cry,
Giggle while you’re high and fly,
never let yourself ask why

Laugh ’til you die, hold yourself and,
Laugh when you should cry,
Breathe a sigh and take in the sky,
see your life in the clouds passing by

Walkin through these streets trapped in my head,
still tangled in the sheets of that strangers bed,
you wanna smile, wait a while, that’s what Daddy said.
Focus on the future but it’s too far ahead

Walkin through these streets trapped in my head,
still tangled in the sheets of that strangers bed,
you wanna smile, wait a while, that’s what Daddy said.
Focus on the future but it’s too far ahead

Retrofaded, baby yeah I’m jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated

A summer night bug bite, an itch I didn’t wanna fight
I chased a light, it shined so bright, I’m letting go of all this spite!

Laugh ‘til you die, hold yourself and,
Laugh when you should cry,
Giggle while you’re high and fly,
never let yourself ask why

Laugh ’til you die, hold yourself and,
Laugh when you should cry,
Breathe a sigh and take in the sky,
see your life in the clouds passing by

Retrofaded, baby yeah I’m jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, baby yeah I’m jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated